Whenever we are feeling defensive, it is for one reason only. It is because we are believing that we are inadequate or at fault and that that inadequacy or guilt is being discovered. And we can live free from all of that.
How many people do you know that have spent 3 months in a Nepalese Monastery, then followed that up with another month in a Thai one, 3 weeks in The Amazon in Peru and another 2 weeks in silence at a California retreat to process it all? Oh, and who trains the brains of Olympic medalists and NCAA Champion gymnasts?
If I'm not actively conditioning my mind on a daily basis, then these and the other 500 million shitty thoughts will take up residence in my vulnerable mind and will govern me in a such a way that I experience life as troublesome and problematic. Dis-eased.
We owe it to the people we serve to stay consistently conscious of our own mastery and excellence - our badassness. Because it's from that state of pure competency that we are most capable of serving powerfully.